30th Sunday of Ordinary Time
10-27-19 |
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Many of us look back and feel guilty about something we said or did in
the past. If only we could undo the cruel deed, we would un-say the
harsh words. But, unfortunately, that is often not possible. What are we
to do? Jesus tells us a story about how one man dealt with his sense of
shame. He went to the temple and stood in some dark corner with his
head down and said, “O God, be merciful to me, a sinner.” |
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Another man was in the temple that day. He seemed to be totally
different; his prayer was a litany of praise. Not to God, but to
himself. Had he never done or said anything of which he was ashamed? If
he had, he certainly managed to keep it hidden. That is another way of
dealing with shame. We can bury it so deeply that no eyes can see it,
not even our own. |
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If you have a sense of shame, be glad of it. It is one sure sign of
your humanity, animals do not have this. We have what is called
“conscience” it speaks to us about the things we say or do. Sometimes it
blames us, sometimes it affirms us. When our conscience says, shame on
you, pay attention it may be an opportunity to become a better person. |
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This sense of shame is something we should be glad for. If we never
feel it, chances are that we are excusing ourselves for some things that
are inexcusable. I think that was what the Pharisee in our story was
doing; he was not a monster, at least not the kind who committed crimes
that would land him in jail. But he was a phony; he pretended goodness
and separated himself from the human family. |
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And what was worse, it also separated him from God. When we are honest
and admit our faults and failures, then we are getting real. It puts us
on good terms with God; He cannot forgive what we refuse to admit.
Listen to what Jesus says about the sinner. This man went home from the
temple justified. The barriers had been swept away; he and God were
right with one another. |
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God had accepted him just the way He was. Have you ever tried to have a
close relationship with someone who lies? You never will, because you
never get a straight look at the real person. They are always hiding
behind a mask. You cannot get close to a person like that. Nor can God,
because they never get honest, never get real. The tax collector did
that, he was ashamed of himself and dared to say so right in the
presence of God. |
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The Pharisee was not willing to do that; his pride would not allow it.
So he put on his good-boy mask and kept on pretending. The result was
that one went home from the temple justified and the other man just went
home. He did not realize that. Prayer is not so much about trying to
change God’s mind or heart. It is all about changing us and that is why
the Pharisee’s prayer is so meaningless. |
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There is nothing in his life to change. No room for the concerns of
others, there are no empty places to be filled up. The tax collector,
sinful man that he was, had no illusion about himself. He recognized his
failures and prayed for forgiveness. In his truthful, humble,
God-centered and life-changing manner of praying. The tax collector
continues to be our teacher and our guide. |
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A young Indian boy, nicknamed Ike, was small for his age. Shy and
overlooked by the other boys in the day to day life of the tribe. Here
was one way to gain respect from the other boys. And that was to stand
up to the great bear. The bear lived deep in the forest and was rarely
seen. But often heard, huge food prints. It was said that if you stood
close to the great bear, you would become brave, become a man. So little
Ike took his gun and his compass into the forest. |
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He is frightened and fascinated at the prospect of facing the great
bear. He stayed in the forest days at a time following the bear’s
tracks; but never finding the bear. Then one day after spending nights
in the forest, he woke and stood up and stretched. Then he felt it,
first the forest was silent, no bird or animal sounds, no wind; only
silence, he stood still. He knew that the bear was close by; he knew
that the bear was looking at him. |
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He had no idea if he was in front of him or behind, or how close he
was. So he just stands still, the useless gun at his side and the taste
of fear in his mouth. Then, abruptly, it is over with a roar and the
crashing of bushes. He heard the bear leave and the boy turns to leave
the forest disappointed. He was so close; the bear did not want to show
himself, he would never be a man. |
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Back at the village, Ike sat with the wise man and told him his story.
And the wise man told him, “Go back to the forest, but leave your gun
and your compass. Leave behind all instruments of direction.” The next
day Ike set off and went further into the forest than ever before. On
the second day, while he was eating he looked up and saw the bear. It
just appeared simply out of nowhere. |
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It was huge, strangely, little Ike was not afraid. He stood up and
stretched out his arms showing the great creature that he had no gun.
The bear stood on his hind legs and let out a great roar. Then fell on
all fours and turned passing into the forest. As he left, he turned and
gave one last look at Ike. Ike stood there for a while unable to move
for he had been changed by the encounter. |
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He turned to return home excited and confident. He knew he would never
be the same again. Two men went up to the temple to pray, they both
sought God who had already seen them. One man had a compass and his gun.
In other words, his ego and his pride the other man left it all behind.
One man encountered God, the other did not. When you come to the temple
to pray, do not bring your ego or pride in the presence of Christ. You
do not need them. It is in Christ that we can become whole, become
complete. Once in a while you may want to whisper, Lord be merciful to
me a sinner. |
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